Diavoletto

And so it is
That now I’ve learned
It’s possible to laugh
With a lump in your throat
And tears can be hidden
If you really try
And the roles we people play
Would earn more Academy Awards
Than the screen ever knew
Even in a world that seek thy Zeus
could be casted by clowns

Hiding place

I feel being ignored like i dont exist, but yet more so i feel hatred towards everybody..i feel awkward and out of place, like i dont belong anywhere..confined to myself where i seem to find the best hiding place..the best hiding places are found in the depths of my bleeding soul; no one can ever find me there..they cant find me because i am trapped...trapped to the point where i am entangled with all of my problems, emotions, and angst which along with tears, seems to be endless...the endless sickness of depression has seemed to control my body and soul which might cause me to suddenly break down at any moment...an emotional breakdown which can cause the most pain. i feel like a puppet....my master ripping out my heart, and all the love and kindness that is left..ripping out all that he possibly can, leaving me with nothing but loneliness. left so alone that my only choice is to die...knowing not what to do, or maybe my long awaited happiness could only possibly be found through the next life. knowing that i wont ever find peace in this mortal body i hold dear.

sike! well, guess i just need vacation.

Sin City

Recently, I’ve been confronted that the young of today are rude and probably would be worse than preceding generations. A depressing conclusion though. The young have never been so complacent, pleased with themselves, demanding, unco-operative and downright rude - and seemingly unaware of it. ‘Go ask anybody if they’ve ever been greeted by a purple-faced outrage youth worthy of a pre-war colonel, albeit with a rather different vocabulary!’ As I was advised to do so, with this line I got intrigue. What the hell have gone wrong?

I asked a few people. All, almost have the same answer. ‘Social ineptitude, lack of confidence, shyness, intense self-absorption - these are the afflictions of the young. To some extent they can't help it. They just don't have enough experience, awareness of others and knowledge to cope. We mustn't make unreasonable demands upon them. It could hardly be any worse, but there's more. ''Youth'' culture has never before been so markedly divided off from mainstream culture’.

Now that’s a thought! Guess, I turned out to be a freak myself. And how did that happen? What’s mainstream culture by the way? Don’t want to say it but probably culture of the ‘cultured’, as in those damn elites, hell with traditionals as well.

Sorry, I had a bad day.